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Two years ago this very morning, I sat down and wrote about how I wanted to lose the mask.

Last year, around this time, I was exercising my painting muscles.

Yesterday, I spent some time going over the past two years in posts. Wow, sometimes God blows my mind through what has been written here. There are other times, however…well…I won’t blame those posts on God at all. And neither should you.

If you’ve heard it here once, you’ve heard it a thousand times…Dunamis (power), Eirene (peace), and the maddening friction of human nature against the divine Spirit. I’ve tried to be as real and transparent as I can possibly be. I’ve tried to keep the nitty gritty of living a life that follows hard after Christ just that: nitty gritty. We have enough polished to perfection religiousness in the world, the way I see it. And the deeper I go into this relationship, the more aware I am of what I really am without him. The more aware of what He can do with this mess that is me.

But what can He do with this mess that is my blog?

This is where I’ve been hung up for a while now.

Actually that statement is not exactly true. I’ve been hung up on what I want this blog to be. Is it a ministry? Is it a brand? Do I have purpose or am I just another noisemaker in a cyberspace full of nonsense? All this wondering and pondering and stuttering and stumbling over what this site IS, and I’m not sure I ever stopped to really ask…

What does He want with it?

So maybe I’m just now asking the right question. What do you want with this space, Lord? How is it that you have kept this thing going when I have put so little into it at times? More importantly…

Where are we heading next?